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This is the journey I never learned to stop:

eight chapters written in ash,

with shadows breathing in my room

and a heartbeat surviving in the ruins.

Here I keep my blue nights,

my fears, my open wounds,

the loves that never arrived

and the ones that broke me trying to.

Each chapter is a different fall,

an echo of who I was

and what I’m still trying to leave behind.

If you read these lines, you enter with me

into this cycle that burns and burns again:

LOOP VII — ashfall,

my story of loving, losing,

and standing upright in the smoke.

In my eyes, you are perfect—

so perfect I go blind.

Every morning I wake with blood in my eyes,

the price of crying through the night.

It’s hard to see the truth

when the dream looks exactly like the lie.

Say it already.

I know you hate me,

I know you’re tired of me.

I know you too well

to pretend time hasn’t run out.

Your silence is just a slower way

to break me.

Will someone ever pull me

from Ophelia’s sinking?

Maybe no one will.

Maybe I’ll go under alone.

I’m terrified of solitude,

but my pride won’t let me whisper

that I need saving.

I’m done pretending

I’m someone you care about.

I’m exhausted by your games,

by being the shadow in your room,

the body left in the forgotten corner.

You don’t want me in your life—

so I have to learn

how to fly without you.

It took everything in me

to finally see it:

I don’t feel anything for you anymore.

I have to let you go,

lock the door of my heart,

and leave the key on the other side—

where you can’t reach it.

Where I can’t open it again.

If only you could see me

the way I see you.

From a distance, I watch you kiss her,

while I stay here,

stuck in the corner,

trying to exist in your line of sight.

I know I’m not the kind of person

you’d ever take home.

So all I can do is dance my part,

let the music flood my senses,

drink the noise until it numbs

what I really feel.